~心靈的花園~

Tuesday, April 16, 2002

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This is the room that I have been spending most of my time in for these few weeks. Could I leave before midnight? Theoretically yes, practically no... Now I am sitting in front of the computer, with all the notes and references scattering around... I don't really feel sorry for myself... it's just a way of life... that many others are going through as well... But I haven't felt that bored and unmotivated ever since last "depressive episode"... I think, I've been controlling myself for quite a while... controlling the attention, motivation, effort, persistence, whatever... since then... is it normal to feel tired or bored at this moment? is it natural if i wanna just lay back a bit tonight?But time is running out... Perhaps counting the grace I've had so far will be good... I thank God so much that my health is fairly good now, that I can really afford to become a "workaholic"! I thank God that my family is peaceful and supportive these days, that I can really concentrate on my own stuffs! I thank God for sending me so many angels, who work with me, encourage me, pray for me, and make my life a lot more easier and brighter! I thank God that He is my strength and my deliverence, that in everything I can rely on Him! It's all these things that make each day not as frightening as it could have been!!One third of this week's mission was done already (today's presentation). Glad that the audience liked our powerpoint ^^. Two-thirds remaining only... I really know, it will soon be over.... Alright... it's enough for channeling out the emotions! I should get back to the next presentation again!!

by jojoju at 11:46 PM |